I was waiting to hear that Hay House Publishing Company had accepted my book proposal. It was yesterday morning, Monday, May 5, 2025, the day after May the Fourth be with you. I was all about this Force, this Energy, this Universe I talk to in order to receive guidance and send out gratitude. I do it everyday quite often. I know how to do it because I have done it before, for years. I was asking my Dear Creator to stay by my side as I found myself pacing for a short time in the living room of Our Treehouse. I remember thinking, “It’s like walking around trying to birth a baby.” And my book, CAN YOU UNDERSTAND ME? A NURSE’S OWN JOURNEY WITH TONGUE CANCER, is very much like my baby.
I checked my email at 9am, 10am, and then 11am. Then there it was. An email from Hay House reporting they had selected two winners from the book proposal contest. I was not one of those winners. My spirits slowly deflated, like untying a balloon and watching the air move out into space and the balloon flatten to a pancake. Oh, I knew the answer no was a possibility. But I have carried the energy around for months that my book would fly with Hay House. And the book proposal itself was no easy task to accomplish. So now I feel lost, like a Captain without her ship. I have no idea which direction I want to set sail my sails. Two concepts fill my mind: I will not give up, and, uncertainty is at this time my middle name. Uncertainty is no fun to live with.
So I will process “things”. Something I want to do, and something I do not want to do. I will learn. I know me, like a hibernating bear I will take myself off the grid. Maybe for a short time, maybe for a longer time. I am grateful I have Our Treehouse and Grandmother Tree. Both make it easy for me to disappear with very little communication with anyone if I so chose and at the same time remain faithful to those that share my life. I will continue with my prayer walks, asking for guidance and perseverance. And I will pray for others, because I understand that is a powerful gift that lies within me.
Disappointment is a feeling we have all embraced, that reminds me once again we all are on this life journey together. And when I am ready I will shake it off, and begin again. My dear friend, Lisa, writer and editor, encourages me to understand that my book simply was not picked up by one publisher. It is not a rejection of me, nor my writing.
My beautiful neighbor Maritza posted on FaceBook today, from her own perspective, “No matter what, everything will be alright.” My dear friend T.J. posted, “Let go and let God.” I find such comfort in both these phrases. It is a language I speak. I only need to do my part, and leave the rest up to my Higher Power. I can rest in this, and know that energy, that joy that makes up so much of who Joan is, will come flowing back to me. So while I am hibernating I will open my arms and receive. So much Good. It is all a choice I will allow. Something I have done before and will do again. I know, I absolutely know, all of the Universe is cheering for me, Queen Joan the Beautiful.
I am off on a prayer walk to discover the direction my ship will sail. I have never forgotten I am the Captain. With God, all things are possible.
c Love, Joan
Dear Joan, I understand your need to get off the grid as you feel and process your grief. You are wise to listen to your needs. I am sending you hugs!!
Thanks for the hugs beautiful Lady! They are working! :O)
I’m so glad you’re permitting off-the-grid time as you process this information. The ship will right itself in due time. Until then, I’m sending you a great big hug.
Yes, the ship will right itself! I love that, and hugs back to you beautiful Girl!
Everything truly does happen for a reason and God is always many many steps ahead of us. He’s before you, beside you and behind you and he’s got you !!! ALL will be well! As my sister Julian of Norwich always said🥰 I always say Our God is a God of amazing surprises ……. They will come again !!!
And I love great surprises beautiful Lady! :O)
Our disappointments are God’s appointments. He has a perfect timetable. Your day is coming.
THIS brings me so much comfort! Thank you beautiful Lady! Lilly. I still think of you making our patients laugh with your primping and your mirror!! :O)
It will come around again beautiful gifted Joan
Observing little children reminds us how very hard it is to be told “No”. They, in my experience, never understand the why of that roadblock to their desire and rage against it. All who have grandkids have witnessed the meltdowns. Yet, most of the time Mom and Dad have good reasons which it may take 40 years for that child to understand! So it is with your Divine Parent who loves you with an everlasting love. Take heart, dear Joan. Take heart.
Thank you beautiful Lady! Your wise words are so true!
Thank you my sweet friend, beautiful Lady!
Thank you beautiful Lady! Bonnie Sue my dear friend!
Oh Joan, I’m so sorry. What a disappointment. Try again, another publisher. You have such a God-given gift!
Thank you sweet cousin! Beautiful Lady! I will try again!
Wonderful Joan, this is not a rejection of you or a reflection of you. Spirit simply has something better in mind. Take time to feel your feelings. Let your body and soul be held in the loving embrace of nature. When you are ready, like the spring flowers, bloom when you are and let your life, your love and your joy shine forth. You are an amazing human and oh, what a journey you have traveled! There are people waiting to hear your story and find their courage because of your sharing.
Love, Love, Love and BIG HUGS too!
Thank you my dear friend, Rev. Rick. Yes, I am taking some time. Mother Nature is almost my constant companion right now. You know I will not give up!